Just a writer and occasional artist. Not new to DA to be honest. I've found myself drawn into multiple different things and hope to see more. I like to develop stories with other and hopefully expand and evolve over time. |
Current Residence: In your head
Favourite genre of music: Anything BUT rap
Operating System: Windows
MP3 player of choice: Android
Personal Quote: I'm selling these fine leather jackets!
It's been a fairly rough week for me to say the least. Work isn't feeling like the greatest right now with how things are going. I had a co-worker bite my head off when I tried to approach him about stepping in when I'm dealing with customers. The guy's hot and cold. I'm the Assistant Manager, but he feels like he's doing everything and claims he doesn't get paid enough to do the things we would like him to do. The boss himself finally went off on the guy. Personally, I'd feel a lot better if the kid was gone. I can't deal with that, as much as I should be able to, tolerance is only so much. People with bi-polar syndrome are very difficult based on my experience. Their was a lot of things he said that really bugged me. Couldn't help it. I was so furious with him (still am a bit) I wanted to do some things I wouldn't really relay to here. In reality, I didn't. Ultimately, he may end up sliding out of the business.
Still, it doesn't help the fact my funk kicked in. I've been like this for a few days now. The situation was a trigger, but their are other things too. Some of which may be catching up to me. I had a really bad dream a few nights ago. One of those dreams that was so bad it almost felt real. I've been trying to figure out what's going on this week.
I'm burnt mainly I think. Burnt and sad about a few things. Next month the shift with the business is supposed to take place. It's really hard for me to accept the fact the family business is no more. On the flip side, I benefit from this since I have a brighter future. But my entire life is fading from this. It's a business that has been successful for 35 years. Now, it's hard to really pull through at times. I don't know what to make of it really.
If that wasn't bad enough, my parents are planning on selling the house in three years. Mind you, this is a house, my dad built with his own two hands. It's probably going to be the most heartbreaking of all knowing I will no longer be living in the house I've grown up in. I know the move will be good, but it's not the same. Some places you grow attached to. Feel like your a part of it. I helped my dad out with a lot of things here. I don't know how things will pan out as of yet, but their have been talks about it.
2015 has been a lousy year for me. The catching up part is having to keep myself in check up until this point. I've moved on mostly, but it does feel like that emotional baggage from losing two wonderful people in your life tries to sneak out of you. I haven't shed any tears for my best friend or my grandfather. Part of it is a poem that was sent to me. Something that reminds me to keep moving forward. I know I may pop eventually. Still, it's a hard thing to deal with sometimes.
Aside from that, I'm doing what I can to keep going. A lot going on and no time to catch my breath. I know I need a break. I'll take it soon. I'm planning on it.
I thought I would share the poem I recited at my grandfathers memorial services. It has helped me some. I do miss him dearly. And it seems my grandmother may want to be out the door fairly soon herself. I don't know if I could handle that now.
But, here it is. The author is unknown, but I managed to keep it together when reciting it. Hope you guys find something out if it too.
The Fallen Limb
A limb has fallen from the family tree.
I keep hearing a voice that says, "Grieve not for me.
Remember the best times, the laughter, the song.
The good life I lived while I was strong.
Continue my heritage, I'm counting on you.
Keep smiling and surely the sun will shine through.
My mind is at ease, my soul is at rest.
Remembering all, how I truly was blessed.
Continue traditions, no matter how small.
Go on with your life, don't worry about falls
I miss you all dearly, so keep up your chin.
Until the day comes we're together again...
I should get myself something to grub on. See you folks.