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About Deviant Artist Core Member Vere HamelinMale/United States Groups :iconqueencityvalor: QueenCityValor
 
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Wish I could get some sort of motivation to write more.  Sadly, I'm stuck and lost the direction.  -.-

The Force Awakens

Journal Entry: Sun Dec 20, 2015, 6:49 PM
Yes, I did see it after a friend convinced me to.

I did enjoy it, and I have some things that confused me about it.

I won't say much more until later on after christmas though.  Just to be safe.  

Stay tuned and go see it.  That's all I can say

Crime Scene CSS

Images & Code by CrimsonReach
  • Mood: Lonely
Handyman by VHamelin
Handyman
He's here to do some maintenance on the place and fix any problems.  Don't mind him.

Test shot of a model for my World War II hero.  I think this would be one reason why Helen fell for him, and I'm going to stop there. . .  hehe.  ;)

Shot taken in SL.  Edited in GIMP

Shoutout to :iconethereas: for allowing me to pose at her place.  Hopefully their will be more to come.
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Some Random Thoughts

Journal Entry: Mon Dec 14, 2015, 8:44 PM
So I haven't posted much in a while, I thought I would get some things out of the way at the moment before I sulk in too deep.

Every so often, my emotional overdrive kicks in on me.  I can't really control it, nor is it an excuse.  Which I know I have said numerous times before.  I can't do much about it spare go to bed and sleep it off.  Though their are times it doesn't always happen that way.  Believe me, I wish I could control it when it does kick in, but as it stands, I can't always keep in check.  The triggers could be anything doesn't matter what it is.  Just one of those things.

As far as where I'm at now, this is the midpoint for me.  The anniversary of my best friends passing was back in November.  Which is why I took a trip to Tennessee.  Come January is the anniversary of my Grandpap's passing.  I haven't shed a single tear on either occasion.  I'm not latching on to it either.  I'm doing what I can to move on with my life, but this year alone has been fairly rough with all the changes.  New job, relatives passing, family members acting like vultures, its a chaotic cycle this year.  The only thin I have right now is my music and my computer.

But even the Digital world can be well. . .  depressing I guess.  Their are times I feel neglected, shut out, or just being taken advantage of.  I hold no expectations from anyone, nor do I ask for much in return.  My impression is wishy washy based on the individual, but how many really know the person behind the screen?  It's very few I think.  I do have my moments, sure.  Everyone does.  But, I tend to get those feelings that some individuals, well. . .  they act nice, or prefer not to converse with me for whatever reason.  It's hard to say.  

In reality, it's their loss, not mine.  People can write whatever they want on their profiles, but if you really want to know the man behind the characters, it's a question of going through the barriers, understanding the flaws, etc.  I have helped out a few people in the past out, openly offered my settings for use, provided some funds for others that lack it.  Do I really expect anything in return?  Not really.  Sure it would be nice to see if others would return the favor, but then I wouldn't feel right about it.  Sure, it's my builds, but I don't intend to keep it all to myself.

I will be honest, I have felt empty, I've felt lonely, their are times I'm very frustrated about my situation and wish I could make it disappear, but in reality, it's there for a reason.  As far as love goes, the process took a very long time for me to really gather the courage and come back out again.  Still those doubts are in my mind; hell, who would want to take a chance with a damaged individual like me?  Their's a lot of things that are still needing repaired on my end.  I've always been scared out of my mind to say the four letter "L" word to the significant other.  In my mind, it's a jinx.  You say it and in turn, you get dropped, stabbed, kicked to the curb, what have you.  Your mind often questions who you are, and why your rejected.  What are you so damn scared of.  I've thought about it a lot in the past.  My biggest fear is becoming so vulnerable that I'll lose who I really am.  Or feel that I was just another puppet in someone else's personal interests.  It sucks, yes.  and I'll get over it in due time.

Aside from that, I'm actually taking a break from work.  A week long Stay cation to rest and recoop before the holidays hit.  Just keep in mind, this is just my brain working at 110 miles per hour.  Come morning, I'll be fine.  

With that said, I'll leave it up to you guys to decide your opinions about me.   I know where I stand, and maybe I just need assurance at this point.  But, I am who I am.  It's like the meme said a friend sent me on face book:  "One day, someone is going to hug you so tight, that all of your broken pieces will stick back together."  We'll see when that day comes.

Enjoy your holidays folks.

-Vee

Crime Scene CSS

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  • Mood: Lonely

New stuff on Black Friday

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 27, 2015, 6:36 PM
Okay, I know christmas is around the corner and all, but I have been meaning to invest in a laptop for some time now.  Honestly, I just need it for work and personal use primarily.  This way I'm not trying to kipe a machine from someone.  At least I have my own Laptop to use when I'm away someplace.  :)  It's not much, but it will do for the things I need it for.

As for other new things, I finally replaced my old Photon Cell Phone for a Samsung G6.  Primarily it was time for a new phone and the battery was about to explode at any given point and time.   (The back of the phone was swollen from the immense heat distribution.)  It will also be beneficial to give my phone a rest when I'm out visiting someone.  :)

Now for some rough news.  While away, I found out from my sister, that my mom's mother is on her way out.  After talking with my brother out in japan about it, I have to agree with him on what he said.  I never liked her for various reasons, but she is still family, and none of us wished this upon her.  My mother and her sister are having a rough time with it.  They finally got their mother into hospice at this point.  Emotionally, I'm alright.  Their's a lot to be said about this woman that's on her way out the door.  She was very flawed as an individual.  Selfish, self-centered, greedy, jealous, miserable.  myself and my two siblings dreaded talking to her on christmas day.  I hated her for the fact she didn't really care about me, or my siblings.  She was only interested in her own interests.  Didn't care about anyone in the family, always making my mother upset through her guilt trips.  I can remember back 98 when I visited my older brother while he was still living in Florida how this woman was.  She knew I was in Florida and left a nasty message on my brothers answering machine.  Just a witch overall.  She never did step in when she was supposed to and raise four kids.  That was all my mother that handled that.  I always figured when her time came, she would be alone for the most part.  

On the flip side of the coin, their is a small piece of me that was really hoping that maybe, their was a chance for her to change her ways.  At least she would open her eyes to reality and realize all the things she threw away due to her own selfishness, and greed.  But as it stands, she carried on like always.  Not a care in the world about anyone.  Just her own interests and needs.  It's too bad.  A bit painful somewhat too.  I can see where the neglect comes from on my moms side.

It's sinking in a little bit, but I'll be fine.  I'm going to be driving back to New York tomorrow morning.  About a 12 hour trip back provided the weather holds up.  It was fun spending Thanksgiving in Tennessee with my brother.  It's been close to 20 years since I did that.  And spend a few days with my sister.  :)  I'm really grateful for this break.  I haven't had one like this in a while.  

Aside from that, I'll be seeing you guys again.  Going to check on a few things and hit the sack early.  Gotta start early tomorrow.  Be safe all.  Hope your turkey day was eventful and fulfilling.  

Vee

Crime Scene CSS

Images & Code by CrimsonReach
  • Mood: Neutral

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VHamelin
Vere Hamelin
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United States
Just a writer and occasional artist. Not new to DA to be honest. I've found myself drawn into multiple different things and hope to see more. I like to develop stories with other and hopefully expand and evolve over time. :)

Current Residence: In your head
Favourite genre of music: Anything BUT rap
Operating System: Windows
MP3 player of choice: Android
Personal Quote: I'm selling these fine leather jackets!
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The Force Awakens

Journal Entry: Sun Dec 20, 2015, 6:49 PM
Yes, I did see it after a friend convinced me to.

I did enjoy it, and I have some things that confused me about it.

I won't say much more until later on after christmas though.  Just to be safe.  

Stay tuned and go see it.  That's all I can say

Crime Scene CSS

Images & Code by CrimsonReach
  • Mood: Lonely

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